I am so sorry I haven’t updated for ages, I’ve a new pc and it wouldn’t let me in, however I’ve finally beaten it and here I am.  ok… I have no idea where I left it last time so I shall start with November last year.

 I attended my first FF party and it was a pretty good turn out.  I met so many more forum buddies and we had a lovely time.  Mel Giles sponsered the event, thank you so much Mel.  I think I may of appeared a little drunk but I wasn’t honest… I kept tripping over my heels Oh have to save a big thanks to my smoking buddies for keeping me company out there in that dark carpark. Very Chivalrous (I so can not spell that) Special thanks go to Jan (kallis3) and hubby Dave for putting me up and feeding me once again, I wouldn’t of had a clue where to go on the train so thank you for taking that worry away from me.

Just before the FF meeting, my youngest son decided to break his wrist! (2nd time other wrist!!) it was a particularly nasty break, one which required immediate surgery and then visits to and from the hospital to see the consultant.  It wasn’t until the end of January that we found it it had been succesful and had healed the best it ever would.

A few days after that I had a major problem.  my darling Hira had somehow burst his eyeball (he’s my cat!) and it had ulcerated.  This meant a trip to the vets and ultimately surgery to remove the eye. You can imagine the panic I was in… so close to Christmas, no money etc, well I have to say that DFD came to the rescue in spectacular fashion and I was allowed to use what I needed from the following months payment and pay for everything he needed.  He is now fully recovered, has adjusted to only having the one eye and is to date the MOST expensive cat I have ever had!!  We are allowed to pay the arrears at the very end of our IVA.

Ok so we hit Christmas… ebay came into force again and I 90% of all presents came from there.  I actually did quite well and even though there wasn’t much, I don’t think anyone was disapointed with what they got. I started my week of shifts back at work on Christmas night so I didn’t get much of the festivities last year.  If my rota stays the same it looks set to me working Xmas for a few years yet. (I start back Xmas eve this year so will see non of it at all)

Jan and Feb were pretty quiet, money is tight and the weather was a bit bad with all the snow.  I had to take a night off as I couldn’t bike through the country roads. it’s the first time ever I haven’t been able to get to work due to weather. I fell off again on the icy roads too! I bounce quite well though

I also put my back out again in January… this is a common complaint but this time it’s left me with sciatica and I have to say  it’s blooming awful. it’s not something that comes and goes, its there constantly and I think I’m stuck with it. it’s a bit weird really as the pain can be pretty bad but its the numb blown up feeling I get in my calf and the pins and needles I get down my leg to under my foot that causes the problems.  I struggle to walk distances and find it tricky to walk down a slope.  I can cycle though, I have no pain at all when I do that.  good job really eh?  It’s just something else to live with and I reckon I’ll manage just fine.

Easter …. The day before good friday saw a post on teh forum about extra payments, payments that had been made upfront that were not included in the IVA, the poster was with DFD and as the same thing had happened to us, I jumped in on the post and asked questions too. Declan (our DFD poster) jumped on my case and tried to get it sorted for me… unfortunately I was left stewing about it all Easter and had to wait to the Tuesday after to find out if what I had argues was right.  I received a phone call on the 6th April to tell me that yes, my way of thinking was right and the conclusion of our IVA wil now be a month early… well actually it will be the same date but a month less. So I am overjoyed at that and the feeling that in 42 days I will be debt free is sureal.

6th April….. My grandaughter is 4… I can’t believe how she has grown. She’s a little beauty and I have her over for the weekend as much as I can… she wears me out tho

6th April ….. I find out I have another Grandaughter.  She was born on march 31st to my sons ex girlfriend.  She was 7.15oz and called Isabelle.  This wholse scenario won’t be easy or nice and I fear the courts will be involved but I have seen her (as has my son) and she’s gorgeous, this cute little dumpling.  I’m 40  and have 2 grandaughters…. the perils of having kids young!  so it looks like 6th April is  significant day! (perhaps I should put the number 6 in lottery draws….haha)

Today is the 16th April and once again that cloud has decended over the house.  Our Amazing wonderful cheeky son has been gone 4 years tomorrow. Chris would be 26 this year and I find it so comforting that all of his mates… who are that age… are Jamie’s mates. Jamie and Chris had such an amazing bond in the last year of his life that he naturally made friends with all his friends, so Now all Chris’s mates are Jamies… it doesn’t make sense reading it back but there was a 5 year difference between them and normally siblings friendships wouldn’t progress like that I don’t think.  I still miss him, it still hurts and aches and its still horrible, but I do think it’s getting easier to cope with.  perhaps the anniversary will always be tough, that and his Birthday but it’s not so raw the rest of the times now. that doesn’t mean he will ever be forgotton, he never will be.

I will post another blog in 42 days……….. 28th May when my last payment leaves the bank.  You never know… the weather might be warm then and spring might have sprung.

 xxxxx